Little steps forward

So, the dance portion of that "sucking for a year" thing.  It's tough.

I think in a lot of ways it's harder coming back to dance when I could do so much before, and don't have the strength / practice / precision to execute things the way I used to.  I remember being able to do this thing, and now I can't.  It's frustrating working back to that level.  Before I quit dance, everything was all possibilities, because I was chasing my personal best. 

At the same time, I've got to question if I could really do all the things I remember doing.  Am I just thinking about it with rose-colored glasses on?  It's been nearly ten years since that time.  Has it just become a bit more idealized and golden with age?

I need to remember this is still about possibilities.  This is about pushing past the mythical "before" barrier and becoming the best dancer I can be, period.  I am going to do everything I can with the body I have now.  I'll worry about the body I have tomorrow later.

To work on:

• Getting those elusive double clicks.  I need to get stronger in order to pull myself off the ground and whip my feet around.
• Turnout and cross--especially in hardshoe.
• Breaking every part of my steps down and doing them over and over again, gradually adding more material until I have the whole step in time with the music.
• Left feet.  Whoops!